well at least this week has been good, i'm very glad of that, i thought it was going to be good, then for some reason i thought it might be shit, but it hasnt been, it is now the end of the week and i'm not really banking on doing much today, going out wise, i have a bit of tidying up to do, that is something i am not willing to do but it is also something that has to be done, i have literally done the majority of it already, it tookme like 40 mins to do that bit, but still, my mess, i cant expect my brother to help me, lazy bastard still in bed, yes i have to just get everything sorted and then wait to go to work, 30 hours this weekend, the most i have done in 4 days i think, doesnt help that i am on my jack for 4 days, that is gonna suck, and that is a lot of work for someone to do, on thier own, back to the furture is a great film, and the second one is just as good, clever, very, moses is a song that should have been, but wasn't, kaiser cheifs are a band that shouldnt have been but was, pointless, well at this maoment i am waiting for some replys to text messages, and listening to turn up the sun by oasis, ad thinking, "why can i still smell fish....." christine's party was quite good, even though she didnt really know us, and i'm sure she didnt remember our names, well maybe not mine, we only saw her like every half an hour coming downstairs to see if everyone was alright, steve was particualrly funny, we had started drinking at about 3, and it was kinda getting to us, more steve that me, as i am a very slow drinker, so in that time he had drunk more than me, he was like 2 cans in front, so i was making him spin on his head, t'was good, at the end of the night, well the next morning, we walked anna and kylie home, walking anna 1st and then kylie, in which before we did we had long talks, trying to find constilations, and trying to find dee and meaning full converstaion, oh and also i dropped one of steves calsbergs on the way home which exploded like a bitch, and i'm sure he wasnt going to pick that abck up to drink it, yesterday, food was cooked and films were watched, elton john was sung, pictures were taken, fights were fort, and a good time was had by all, a laminated list was was made up by me and natalie and kylie, steve couldnt think of one, today, well today it is now only half past 11, and tere is still a long day to be lived, and the trouble is that it is gonna be a shitter of a day, so much to do, so little time, and it also sucks that i am not going to see anyone untill like tuesday, shit shit shit, my ebay has still not ocme through yet, which is a bit shite, i'll just have to wait a little bit longer i haop, it better be fucking worth it, i havn't been feeling all to great recently, some of it can be just being stupid, but also some of it can be acutally true, and there is not a stupid reason why, the salt and pepper theory is shit, and that is what i have been noticing recently, to on top of everythng else, as well as being the bowling kind, i am gettting sick and tired of it now, from walking home last night i had the theory of why it all happens, and its kinda my fault, why do i atract it, it has happened just too amny times and is still in progress, in each of the cases its always been the same, Gary, Nathan, Scott and Steve, and its a fucking shit, but it happens and i always have to deal with it, each time there being an exception, with Gary there was a long one, well back then i was't really bothered cos i had what i wanted, well i say that i didnt have anything but, i wan't actually bothered about it at the time, its just whn i look back that its a fucker, and in them day's i would even say it out loud with out it really going in, betwwen Gary and Nathan, when Gary was literally just on the edge and nathan was making is 1st Stand there was a Gliimmer of hope, but that glimmer was short lived, then Nathan took Power, that was fine, i mean its not as is those things were bothereing me, cs he had it all, then there was scott, and that is when i started to notice it, "hmmm thats the 3rd time that has happened" yes listen up could really sum it up, the chorus line, its not that i dont mind, its that i have to put up with it, then Scott Faded, and that was when maybe there could have been a possiblility of everything or anything, but nothing, Nathan was still in power, was.He Still Is, but anyway, i looked around and looked, but with out that leaning post it looked i was going no where, i mean with that higher ground, i suppose i got somewhere, but on my jack it was kinda shite, with Gary it was brilliant at the start, cos we were both in that same situation, dont mean exactly but uit was similar, i mean he had tonnes more going for him than me, then later on when he found it, i thought i might have, but the door was shut in my face, Nathan was always tricky, cos he always had it, there has only been about 1 monthin the whole time i have known him that he possibly was with out it, so that was a problem because even though he had it, there still was a queue of it for him, being that fruit again was a big fucking piss take, with scott it was a bit better because there was reason for both us us to find it, even though he was always a step or 2 infront, it was good, but fucking hasnt that always been the case? then he got premoted, and from what i hear, its unbeleiveable what has happened, steve now, well that is present and i can just see a repeate of history infront of my eyes, but this time iknow what is coming up, i can kinda guess it, which is shite, cos i am running out of time, big time, i am in bowling and that is awful, cos i can only stand there, Come Take Me Over, Is That To Much to Ask, Have You Got anything To Spare?
I guess wht i'm trying to say, is that i've had enough, cant use it anyway

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