"everday we have is one more day that you were mine"

something over this short period of time which has been the easter hoildays, has gone wrong,
i dont exactly know what it is, its nothing wrong with me, not like my ears are falling off or something,
or i am grazed, well i am, but thats for another time, and other peoples ears.......
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something dramatically has changed, i really dont know what it is, and i dont like it,
yesterday and today have been ok, kinda back to normal, kinda,
its like the lid on top of a boiling pot, but this boiling pot, the lid doesnt fit, and it is just floating on the water level,
theres us on the top trying to keep this side up, trying not to fall in
we have all been in this week, i think
and now things are just starting to go back to normal,
good imagry eh.........
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i cant wait untill i get paid
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i think i know when it all started
the last day of college,
it was all going smoothly,
drinking round steves,
drunk too quickly, drunk loads more at the party,
strangly i got quite upset that night, unlike me, but its ok, because there was no actually realisation or recelection that it happened, which was a bonus, as my pride was intact
saturday, feeling like dogshit
going laura's and leesons, sober, still feeling shite,
hearing things, things, that honestly, i really didnt want to hear, or even have a knoledge of,
sunday
did nothing, absolutly nothing
that gave me so much time to think, being on my own for such a long period of time, not going outside
not being able to sleep, because things going through my head, keeping me awake
monday, feeling shite still, from firday nights booze attack,
its probably the worse hangover i've ever had, as i felt shite for days,
went to grays with people, went to work
after work, had ppl round to watch "coming to america" that was good
tuesday, went over the field with people
things were feeling better, got laods of pizza
then went to lakeside, for some reason.....
went to work, then home
wednesday, people had gone to france, this was when things started to get, differnet,
helped steve de-rust his car,
the a big fuck of bit of it fell off the back,
whoops....
went to domino's and had more pizza
attepted a bbq round my house
had ppl round
the realised, i havnt got a bbq,
doh, you dickhead
so i cooked poeple various food
erm, cant really remember what else happened,
ah that was it, went to the pub
shit, that makes it 3 times this week i've been to the pub,
anyway
thurday
played football, went to the pub (again)
went to the chipshop, went back to mine, cooked steve burgers in my kitchen,
wrote and recorded 4 more GaysFM songs
ppl went home
bout it
Friday, things were still strange, as there had been lots of things said over this short period of time
me and mark had had a big conversation, about, things.....
me and steve had shit loads of talks over the week
too much information going in
i cant remember what i did on friday,
apart from wwent to work
yesterday, worked,
went round steves, josh was back whic was cool, went over the feild with our guitars, stayed untill we were cold then went back to steves
there was lots of fights at steves, physical fights bettween all us boys,
today
went to lakeside, then mikes, then pub
and then now,
at the moment i feel fine,
things have been said over this week, as i have already said, inwhich i really didnt need to hear,
but now, all i can do is just think, give a shit

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