Anyway
well its christmas eve, it doesnt feel like it at all, i have missed the warm up to christmas, this is my last day at work to day, i have done a stretch of 61 hours at work, 24 of which was thursday and fridays 12 hour shifts
recently, on a few occasions, it seems like the world of light had turned its back on me, so much being taken away, so much not being there when i was
these past few days have been quite frankly, hell
being forotten, many a-time in these past few weeks, has been someting that i have just had to go, "ok fair enough" to
its a shame that filming is over, because i was having fun then
i think i have gotten to the stage when i see past a few things with a few people,
things like, "wow, was it really like that?"
"if your going to say that, why do you even bother with me"
i really cant be arsed anymore, i feel like just blending into the background instead of something that is not easily dissolved,
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today was the quickest time that i ahve ever beent o lakeside and back, and got everything i went for
as i have ben solidly working and got paid yesterday, i havnt had the time to go and get all of my christmas shopping, so i went today
i'm not sure how that will be percived by people, but i had no choice
i left my house at 9:15
got to lakeside, bought mum, dad, nathan, jess, ben and lisa's presents
got home at 11:50 from walking there and back
christmas eve at lakeside isnt so bad
i think i'll go delivering my presents tonight, after work, i'm working a pointless shift of 14:00 - 18:30
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i hope i see everyone, at least for just a glimpse, before christmas, yes i think i'll go on a knocking frenzy, too see people,
if anyone wants to come out , breifly, or for a bit, could you contact me somehow,
if not, merry christmas
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i totally forgot what i was trying to say in this entry, i was thining about it walking too and from lakeside, but i've forgot it, oh well,
i'll look like an idiot instead
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"oooh quality street, oh wait i'm not a grocery or freezer collegue, fuck it"
"paul, you shit bag"
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How kind of you to think of me
When I was out of sorts
It really meant alot to be
In someone else's thoughts