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is this all worth it?
am i just waisting my time,
i dont mind doing what i do but, aybe it seems like i am digging myself a hole,
because now when i stop doing what i am doing then people might think,oh fuck him, he doesnt care anymore,
well i do, but maybe i care too much,
i mean, i sit here and think "shit, i want to help you" but then i realise sometimes there is nothing i can do, or maybe that person may not want my help,
its all too confusing,
i realise the more i go out the more money i spend
the more people that i am with the more money i will spend
and its not brilliant
i mean i know i am not perfect, and i know that i am not completely a selfless person,
some aspects i am,
quite a few people i will happily spend money on, aslong as it makes them happy, and not want it back, cos normally its food or a cd or a book, or booze, but somepeople i think y do i and why should i bother, i mean im going out to get something in return, but sometimes a thank you would be nice
i mean i would say 90 percent of people do,
theres normally a "cheers Mate"
or a thank you hug, from many people,
or even just a smile,
but sometimes its a, they'll hold out thier hand and i'll put the money in it
then they will just walk off
now thats when i think, what am i getting out of that,
depending on who it is, sometimes i dont want anything from them, Fucking Shleppers,
but still, manners is always something that i like
i know i'm saying this and it has on occured once or twice, but still those are the things that stick in my mind, and thats what makes me feel different about people.
I'm not reaching, the world that i want deep inside,
also if there wasn't as many eyes, spying eyes, then i might be able to help ppl more,

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I Like dreaming, dreaming is fun,
i dont like day dreams, sometimes they are ok, but in long time periods, they always seem to turn bad, i dream people are being arsehole, and it gets me angry, and thats why i get angry,
but dreams at night are great, they don't normally be bad,
mostly i cant remember them, but the ones i remember seem to cheer me up,

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i have been listening to robbie williams recently, i havn't done for a while,
but i remembered that i wanted all of his b-sides at one time, so started to download them,
also at the same time listened to his album, then found that he has some really really great album track,
i ripped them and have been listening to then over and over again

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Turn Back The Time - Cappo 1st

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i got some good pictures from the coldplay gig, i'll have to get them printed off

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I'm on Disk 5 lol, ils sont grands

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J'ai �t� dit que les amours un celelbration, mais moi avons perdu la foi par l'an�antissement

ah still know a bit of the lingo
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onde est�o voc�?

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These Dreams have Let you down

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laters картофель

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