tonight, listening to the Bee Gee's
actually brought my charger with me today, so i have been able to play my PSP,

slept until about 12 today even with various phone calls, texts, and my dad being loud around the house

haven't especiually done much today

was hoping to go out with emma, but was unable to

holly seemed up for doing something, for a second, then wasn't again

ah yes i organised the mini bus for holly's koko thing, yes thats what i did today,
got about 10 quotes from various mini bus companies from the thompson local and yellow pages

prices ranging from �220 - �400
�400 was surly a hint that they didn't want to do the job

some people say that i do too much for people, like volenteer myself into doing things for them, and shouldn't
and that its foolsih

well i wouldn't do it if i didn't want to, i'm not getting the wool pulled over my eyes and getting coaxed into doing things,

i genuienly like doing things for people
if someone says that they are re decorating their bedroom or something, i'll ask if they need some help,
i've done some wallpapering and painting with my dad in the past, have even put down a floor and put up some plasterboard,

i've not exactly got many hobbies, other than playing music, and theres only so much of that you can do
there was a stage where i was playing a lot of gamecube on the wii, but haven't now in such a long long time,

i've forgotten my point in bringing that up,

i do get annoyed sometimes with people who don't appreiciate something i've done with them or for them etc, and by that i only mean saying thank you, sometimes its few and far between with some people

but i don't stay mad long, as after a little while i'll forget,

its my own fault i guess
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i've kinda got to get used to my new postion to people, meaning
things have changed and i'm seen as something different to them,
in their life, socially, theres been changes, things get re arranged,
and in mine, its not so black and white,
not a great deal feels like it should have changed,
but then its, oh , it has

sometimes i think, but you never used to be like this with me, why has things changed? can't you just go back to how you used to be

but then ui'll take a step back and think, its been 3 years since i've been 18, you gotten older, and i've gotton older too
oh yeah i'm 21, not a kid anymore
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the delirium of being on nights, opens up the can of worms in my head, but then documenting it doesn't bring many conclusive results,
i'm not going to even bother reading this back
because i'll end up probably deleting everything, and then not being arsed to write again,
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i'll think of a plan, i always do
i've always pulled it out of the hat,

i dont need to, things are beyond my control, but it seems like it has been tempoarilly written into me to try

watch this space

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