i hate the 1st early shift, especally after a weekend, when your going to bed late and not getting up too early,

couldnt get no sleep last night,
going to bed at a sensible time doesn't work, as i just lie awake for hours,
so i thought i'd just keep myslef busy on my laptop until i got tired, which seemed to not happen,

so then about 1 o'clock i actually tried to sleep,
dunno when i got to sleep, but it definitely was not soon after,

i had so much going through my head,
nothing of any great importance, and nothing that is plauging my mind,

just certain things i couldn't get out,
when my head is still trying to work, all i seem to think about is "what if"

which is waft, i hate thinking what if, because i'm not actually thinking about it, but because in my half asleep brain is rolling the footage, i then think
"fucking hell, what if...?"

then i usually start thinking about, what if not, which isn't all that usual, usual thinking about all the stuff i've done which makes me make loud noises with my hands pressed on my face

but well it changes after a while, and i start thinking, its not so bad, people have done worse...

then i start thinking,
man i should be a-fucking-sleep
---------------------------------------
made an apple smoothey yesterday in my new smoothey maker,

was good

fucking noisy though

i bought it last weeke, when me and steve went for a trip south,

thats all we set out to do,

no real plan, just with a fools and horses CD, which was a good change to music

we'd talked about going to paris for the day, on the eurostar, that would have been good

but that turned out rediculously expensive

so we went to maidestone, another wetherspoon crossed off the list,

then on to folkstone, where we went on the stoney beach, in our coats

clambered up these big arse rocks, without dying

we then later went bowling with chris and mark, which was pretty fucking kick arse,

hmmm, i've got photos to upload,

friday night we went surfer,
i got off work early, which was a bonus,

mark said we should "not have the same drink all night"

which i kinda kept up,

i had a 2 beers, then turbo shandy, sambuca shot, a slimer, a single and then a double southen comfort

turbo shandys are dangerous, fucking tastes like lemonade, as well as slimers the go down too easy, fooken does you in

so yeah i was pretty drunk,
lisa's got photos i bet,

i kinda thought, when i get drunk, no one else seems to gets as drunk as i am, so i stand out as a fool,

because the last few times we've been out, everyone else was drunker than me

or maybe i'm just a light weight,

so yeah i was pretty drunk walking holly home,

but got back to shens to meet mark, and discovered he was a lot drunker than me

the two chicken burgers were fucking amazing, chris agrees

food tastes better when your druk i find
that might just be me though
---------------------------------------
i've got a lot on in these coming weeks, but well not really,
in theory i have, but nothing concrete,

should hopefully be going back to maidestone this week,

should be going outsomewhere with amy, at some point, some time,

shoud be meeting up with kersti, once again, at some point, in the next year...

Project T.G.T, the next thing for me and josh, should start rolling
hopefully at somepoint

and yeah, i've got to finish outtakes and other shitters 6, but i can't be arsed, its getting boring because its very long, and theres a lot of editing,
and i need to tidy my room, fucking have been very lazy,
wont change though

i also need to see you,
well actually i don't need to, it would be nice though, you know instead of going months without

oh yeah you too, but that ones highly unlikley
------------------------------------
am on the ship again this morning, which is a nice change, i'll probably be back on the road soon though
---------------------------------------

Last || Next