"how long has it been since someone you let in, has give in what i gave to you"
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shite day,
boring as shite
i went into work early
not much else i really want to say about today
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what has come over me, i dont think i can even put it down in words, its not anger its not annoyance, its not hate, its not anything that i have previously known,
i feel really uncomfatable with people
i just sit there and think,
"why is this happening" as if i am expecting something brilliant to happen
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i've lost face since the recent bomb was dropped, things seem to have changed at a lot quicker pace, i feel like a stranger to myself, like i am not like i used to be
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i'm losing weight, strength, i'm constantly not feeling well, i'm losing hope in the future, where things that i would be looking forward to are now hardly looking appealing at all
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its just me, i'm going off the rails, even though i feel like everything is tipping all over me, i am getting covered in all of the blood of all of the killings,
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ghosts from the past send me mail, it feels like an appealing road, but there is always the doubt
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gerrrrr
i clentch my fists, i grit my teeth, and the bad thing is its not going to be over very soon, because the reason is going to be popping up a lot more
soon

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