it feels like i really am at the end of the book,
its not the end of a chapter, those have pasted, now it fees like in 10 hours my book will be shut, and a new one will be started,
a new book where i have to actually do something with my life so that between now and when i die, it isn't shit
this is my future,
i can actually picture it yet, because i have always been living in the present, i have never really ever planned the fufture well
i ahve always lived for today,
some people say thats a good thing, even though i hate the slogan "live life to the max"
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i had my haircut today, i took a picture of grant nicholas to the hair dressers, from around the comfort in sound era, and asked if she could do that
she done it, yea, blah blah, looked good
came home, was itchy from all the hair still on me, decided to ahve a shower
then after that i couldnt get my hair too look like it again
oh well
back to my usual i think, my hair kinda does it tis self now, automatically,
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i'm not in the best of moods at the moment,i dont particularly want to talk much, i dont particulalry want to think much, i dont particularly want to do much, but sit on my own and listen to music,
i havn't made any effort to go out anywhere, to arrange things with people
because, i dont know if i feel like it,
monday night i met up with people after work, and just walked around like a zombie all night
for some reason i fancied some rum, and was going to go to the shop and buy some, but, i didnt, so....
i went home
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i havn't been playing sadie recently, the new strings on it are not sounding dood,
they are too fat
i need to buy some lighter strings, or even replace them wth electric ones like where on there before,
i ahve been sititng playning songs from rubber soul on my brothers yinyang guitar
which sounds very nice btw
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maybe i'm depressed that its finally all over,
maybe i'm right
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everyone seems to ahve stars in thier eyes with what they are going to do, that they are going to be happy and are looking forward to everything,
i cant see nothing for me
i dont know what i will be doing this time next year
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fuck this, i'm going to bed
in hours, the last time i will ever be at college as a student
the end

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