"look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone,
it seemed like such fun untill you loose what you had won"
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you know when someone is unhappy, or upset, you can see it, you can see it in nearly everything they do,
they change slightly, they are trying to run like a normal machine, but you can see that what ever has happened to them, in past or is happening now in the present, is taking its toll on them
you can tell when someone is upset, because you know them
and the people that you know the best are normally the peoeple you love the most
in tern, they are the people that you would least like to see upset
this means that when this happens you feel like you should dig them out of thier hole, you just want to help them, you just want to do what ever it takes to turn them back around the right way again,
you could try and make them happy by trying to make them laugh, or you could try and cheer them up by doing someting that they like doing
you could even buy them a present to put the smile back on their face
you can take them away from the bad place they are i and put them in thier paradise
put them where they want to be
tell them thier story of the future, where everything seems to be a lot better than it is right now,
you could ask them whats wrong, and say, is there anything i can do, cos you are hping that there is something that you can do for them, because if you didnt want to help you wouldnt ask,
if they give you that task to make them that little bit more happier, at least that will stop you feeling useless
you might get the feeling of, they havnt told me, maybe that because they dont want me to know
but you cant just leave them there in their corner of dispear
sometimes you ask them ,a nd they pour thier hearts out to you, sometimes they give you clues to what it is,
sometimes they just go upfront with it and talk as if it dosnt hurt them and that they are not bothered by it
sometimes they just say that they dont know, either meaning that they are just a bit down, or they dont want to tell you
what do you do then
walk off? change the subject
or try and convince them that you can help them, even when yuo might not know how to
when someone tells you what is wrong with them, and you know that you cant do anything about it, its hard
i just sit here and think, shit, i cant do anything, i cant take it to the problem
i hate that,
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i cant really say much about those sort of things anymore as i used tolet things out, i used to let people know how and what i was feeling, it was mainly because i felt that i was on a stable ground, i dont know now, there was a main member that it didnt matter what it as i could tell, and they wuoldnt judge or even try and make me feel worse, they would just sort it
and even when i would say, no please dont do that, they would do it anyway as they knew that it was the missing piece and that it would help me forget it and would sometimes even make things better
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nowerdays its not so clear, sometimes it feels awquard to express what i feel because there is so much going on with other people, that it feels like i should just have a coke and a smile
it never dawns on me that i am only human, and people are only human,
things will go wrong, someonetimes more than one at a time
i coud have a run of bad things happen to me which would make me feel even worse about everything else
i would then think of the worse case scenarios and that would make me feel even worse
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sometimes thins just all of a sudden go right
i am where i want to be, i am with the people i wat to be with
nothing is holding me back and nothing is standing in my way
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those times have come and gone
both types
but what do i do now?
i can do that, two of the biggest posts
it might just be beyond me this time,
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i have to do something, as i cant just sit back and the boat fill up wth more an more water, because one day it will sink
and in my little time i have left, i need to help them
you can run from the past, but mistakes ar made to last
between the lines,
these are mine.

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