a brief history of my 2005

January

�the actual striking of the clock on new years eve/day i was around my house with lauren louise and josie, nathan and scott

�we had a good time at my party, the girls getting quite drunk, lots of dares, lots of fucking around
had a good time

�at this point in time i didnt have that many friends, as i kinda lost touch with all my old friends, and only stayed in contact with a hand full of grays schoolers

�looking through my january entries, it seemed i was a depressed fool, getting hung up for some reason, i would say the majority of them were about moaning
well arent they all

�lots of questioning of myself

�but anyway, january, was the start of bowling fever, well actually i'm not too sure weather it started in january, but me nathan and scott woul be going bowling on average 2 times a week, i think we must have gone about 4 times in one week one time

�this was in my yesterdays news writing era, i think sad and lonely was written in january,
bloody hell, i must have been real happy around that time

�this was probably the time when i stopped fancying lauren, i think

�my entries are so encripted and full of metaphors i cant actually make sence of them myself

�i did a 'how to make a boy named paul' test ad the results were ;
5 parts anger
1 part self sufficantcy
1 part joy
hmmmm

�i did a 100 favorite things, which i think i will update as some of them are wrong now
yes actually very wrong

�january, i put loads of lyrics in my entries, probably cos i couldnt think of anything to say

February

�fucking hell, i really cringe at what i wrote for some of these entries, i was being pathetic

� fuck around with things for nathans birthday, that was a laugh
lauren had a good birthday at college
and so did lee at frankie and bennies, that was a good night

�i must have had a thing for metaphors, cos the entries are full of them
not much of a diary, where i would write what i did that day, no, all about biscuity fringes
what the fuck was i on

� i think this was the time when i liked holly, yes reading i think it was, getting pissed off but hiding it well, i thought

�i think i new kylie around this time, not really in person, just online
we talked a real lot online, but not al all in person, for some reason

�god, i'm getting sick of the metaphors, i am going through entry by entry, and its painfull to read

� i think i pictured so much about the future and was frustraited that nothing happen
it so stupid looking back, cos now i see what i could have or should have done

� i was just so reclused and hoping too much

� oh, yes, more metphore, and now moaning about not having a girlfriend, and i will quote myself, cos its a pathetic line
"hey, if i become a priest i wont have to look for a girlriend"

� yes that was terrible, i reckon i have matured a bit more from then

� getting angry a lot didnt help

� wrote about singing wonderwall of broken dreams with scott, that was actually really good, shame i dont have the recored song we did,
him doing green day, me going guitar and oasis, yes i enjoyed that

� ah yes, i found where i told scott that he had "fucked up views" or something, he did not like that at all

� i only said that cos i was losing the argument, so i wanted to shut him up

� and that it did

� oh yes, the drama i remember, its almost funny thinking of it, at the time, it was so confusiing,

� "17 years of noise and confusion - if i dont go crazy i'll lose my mind" i like that title for an entry

� scott complimented me on that entry,

� realisation that liking holly wasnt gonna get me anywhere but sad, i think at theat point she liked scott, possibly, either that or they just looked good together and flirted alot

� so i thought, "right, the end"

� lots of lyrics quotes

� ah yes i pasted my old website into my diary, i dont know why, the reviews of when i wrestled, the "events" we had, yes very enjoyable
i dont know why i pasted them,

� ah an entry where scott 1st pissed me off, this was with holly, as i said earlier, yes i think i had a good point

� that was it, 19th of feb, that was when me and scott started to go down hill, slowly,
i can remember writing that, and then it started

� more lyrics quotes and more metaphores

� ah, i have found my metaphore for the girls i liked at the time, i think there was five, yes very strange, as it didnt last all that long, i compaired the girls to objects
i cant remeber who is who though
shit
i know the 1st one was lauren
we had a night out all of us, and i got close to lauren again, saying that, i never got very close to lauren but i got to my usual stage with her, and the spark re-egnited, oh not for long though, it was blown out quick , i think

�fucking february was a long old month

march

� "i'm just happy to talk with you" that was a good entry, think ineeded to say that

� i wrote an entry, called "i dont want that" i think, and it was about how much i disliked ,sn talking, i liked talking to people, but i dont like it morethan face to face, and it was me moaning about it

� people like kylie and holly, it would seem i ould only talk to them online, and i didnt like that

� ah todays headline, yes that was fun
code, code i tell you!

� i wonder if whoever read them at the time worked out who they were about
i told scott at the time,

� an entry about what made me happy - the answer was summer, the memories of summer

� i suppose

� i found a nice poem about friendship,
pasted it

� hmm, this might have been one of my hapier periods, everything being read seems ok, do far

� wow, i wrote a really nice entry about love, it was caled what is love
most of them were pasted, but all together they sound good

� this point, the middle of march, i started talking too all the new people,
talking about how i am not good with new people

� oh wait, yet more depression, i happines didnt last that long, and the re imergance of metaphors

� ah yes, right there thats when i stopped liking scott, and i think that is when he stopped liking me too, i still talked him a bit, but we just stopped, so did nathan

� near the end of march, i was trying to get the two groups to merge, but was failing, we were in the garden room and we were all sitting on the same table, then when the blue room re opened, they all sat away from us, and i was like
shit

� ah yes back to them 5 girls, these were 5 girls i liked, i dont mean like liked, i just thought they were good looking, i think someone asked me if there was anyone that i liked, and i compiled this list in my head, ha har, i remember now, they were in no particular order
1. hmm, i think that was lauren,
reading back i'm not too sure
2. hmmm, i dont actually know, " i think you look nice in red" i cant remember who that was
3. erm, i dont know that either, i remember doing the list now, but i really cant make out who was on it from the descriptions
4. dunno
5. i think that was vicky from asda, micheals cousin, i dont kow though, it might not be
i can only assume that they were kylie, holly, and lisa, because they were the only people around that time thati kinda talked to girlwise, so i might be them, but itdot make any sense, maybe it isnt any of them, look good in red? eh?

� getting sad again,
visiting the 3 trees on my own, i dunno why
i was grounded at this point, and it felt like i had been left behind so quickly
nathan was going out with jess, and was seeing a lot more of her
scott had made friends with dom, and was him a lot, the girls were off looking for boyfriends, so i kind returned and went "where the fuck is everyone"

� that is proved by the next set of entries which are mainly saying, i'm bored, and i've nothing to do, whre is everyone, i have no one to go out with

� i think i might have started going out places with kylie at this point, it must have been around this time, we would go to lakeside quite a bit
i was online one day and i had asked everyone i could if they wanted to go akeside with me, but they either said no or were busy
i thought i would ask kylie, i really didnt expect her to say yes,
so when she did, i was like, "oh this is going to be awquared," as we haddnt really spoke to eachother much in person, and now i was going to lakeside with her, and i imagined that we would find it hard to think of things to say
but no, we hit it off like a house on fire, i am suprised how well we talked to each other, and ow easy it was :)

� we also made up, shangri-la-laithy-moo
our imaginery paradise
that made me smile :)

� ah got a bootleg copy of lyla ages before it came out
liked it
many people didnt
as well as other oasis songs, let there Be Love,Guess god thinks i'm abel,a bell may ring
they were good too
and an early edition of talk by coldplay

April

� went to see the ring 2, i wrote that it was ok, but thinking about it, it was dogshit
went with scott dom and lauren
i did not enjoy that night,
i think dom and lauren were goin out and scott was literally talking to dom all the time, so i felt like a tag a long again
where was nathan when i needed him

� more song lyrics

� had a free house, had 2 parties, 1 was good, other was awful,
had a bit to drink on both
nathan and scott were round for both, so was the girls,
second one kylie and holly turned up
both parties scott was on my computer all night, while the rest of us were actually having a party

� thorpe park was good, felt sick for quite a bit of it

� basically april, i was bored with nothing to do

� this was when i went london with kylie, had a really good time

� also this is when it took me ages to work out who scotts girlfriend was
answering yes no questions with kinda, and maybe
what do you expect

� yea not a lot happened this month

� talking about the last time i cried, in year 9

� reading one entry (the taste of your kiss), kinda did bring back good memories, yet i felt like i had less friends than ever at this point, i always had nathan, come to think of it, even if he was with jess, he still had priorities with me, that makes him such a top bloke, and i know not everyone gets along with him, that is because he is not good with new people and he feels threatened i think, he is always a bit violent, for some reason
but over all he is probably one of the best friends i have had, at time he haddnt been my best friend, but he was the best friend i could have
it just shows how much a good fucking time we had

� had another good day at the end of april (elmore egals and thundercats)

may

� the 1st of my entries in may says "now thats a kick in the balls"
i cant remember what that was about

� the star of album of the wek, which i havnt done in a while, i may change it to album of the month

� was not well one day, head cold

� ill again apparantly, i cant really rember it, i had a sore throat and a head cold,

� went surfer, met steve properly, had an ok time at surfer, didnt like the walk home as i got left

� i added, "how to forget that like sucks" to my diary

� talk about members, and nathan bunking to get pissed

� got really pissed off at something, i dont know what

� compiled my, fucking big list

� more metaphores

�i wrote a deciving entry, i read in mick foleys book about he did an ecw promo, about how much he hated something " you bitch" etc. really went on with the personification, and at the end f it he was talking about a steel charge, quiet clever so i wrote one about myself

� yesterdays news was literally finished, i had the promo done "coming soon"

� talked about doing something, but i never did, really i dont think i needed to and i am glad i didint, things turned out ok, i was just over reactiing i suppose

July

� went out with mick, did 54 games of pool, went to lakeside watched str wars, then walke home, it was a very very exhausting day,

�had ahstons birthday party, that wasnt bad

�bought my 1st philips mp3, which broke within days
so got a refund

� yesterdays news was 100% finished, not to my satisfaction, but after a year of making it, i thought fuck it,
gave lisa the 1st copy
and only made 8 more copies, so i think i have only given out 9

� me and ben watched shit loads of funny videos on kill some time

� oasis gig, fucking mega

� chicks with dicks was written in this month

� got me dad a tool box for fathers day

� sarted on the new material

� got insulted and that pissed me off

� started going out with steve and mike over the field haivng stronbow nights

� got an early copy of pass me down the wine
very good song

� found wibbling rivalry, very funny
"You can stick your fucking 1000 pound right up your fucking arse, until it comes out of your fucking dick"
"i fucking Will Do"

� went to see coldplay, that was really good

July

� went to edinbugh, fucking ace weekend

� bombs in london was not a happy time

� thought of the album title, - at arms length

� got angry again

� the 1st of our picnics was had

� tried to organise bowling, invited 16 people 5 ppl replied, 3 ppl turned up, me being one of them
what was the point
had a good time, me mike and steve

� discovered a liking to litchenstien

� my explodingdogs books came

� fell on my head, aaron flipped me over and i landed square on the top of my head

� last day of college

� went to see madagasca

� went round kylies, watched a hard days night and donnie darko
looked at loads of her photos on her pc

� july 31st, kylies party, = kick arse

August

� started desiging diaryland layouts

� had a good week, kylies, bowling, picnic, picnic, mikes sleep over, swimming, and round steves

� wrote "you are not around" in kylies absence

� had bbq around mine

� went to romfor with tom and steve, that was a good day
we increaded our swearing vocabulary that day

� more tabloid headline

� had a party at christines, that was good

� wrote " 3 rules - how to live idle" in boredom

� wrote " 3 rules - how to be a sturdy member also in bordom

� went aroud louises after work

� had the 2nd of my bbq's more people this time
i enjoyed myself

� had a dinner party for me steve natalie and kylie, that was good, made a change

September

� went to grays beach with kylie
then went round lisas

� natalies 8th, now that was a fucking good day, i havn't been on a bouncy castle in years

� was store greeter for a few hours

� had lots of long entrys in september

� Started college 2nd year

� finished thundercats, watched every episode

� a night around mikes, wrote lots of on the spot songs,
"kylie is smiley"
and
"steve steve steve"

� went round steves friday night, had a good time

� went pubbing with nathan again

� heard news about natalie is making a film, and everyone is in it

� later found out that she put me as one of the 2 lead roles

� now thats fucking kushty

� had jens party, that was a good night, had hardly any sleep, had college next day, that was good

� bunked college a few time

� had fum with the sumo suits at college

� and with the segriagted ring

october

� did some recording around steves

� doing lots and lots at work, more resonsibilitys

� went round lousies for a party

� not all that much happened in october,

� wrote salesman whore with everyone

� tommy and josh's party, was kick arse, shame thier presnts fucked up

� gary warrens halloween party, i thought iwas fucking awsome, i took the piss out of the bar cos i could get served,

� had a pool day with mick and dan

� filmed for 3 dats for natalies film, that was really good

� went out for a meal for the ending of filming

� went lakeside with steve

� met up with kylie after work, and i went home with her and she cooked me tea :)
fucking tasty as well

� that half term was great

november

� me and steve went lakeside a few time to get early christmas presents

� bonfire night party around nats, was good

� got a bollocking at work for buying alcohol underage as well as playing on the fruit machines
give a shit

� they shouldn't have fucking served me then should they

� did a few questionaires

� had a football match for asdas, kylie libby natalie aimee and meg turned up which was really nice of them,
we won 10-1 and i scored so that was good
great playing football againafter a long while

� bens birthday at the chinese, i didnt go much on the food, but a good time was had by everyone, i thought it was kickarse

� tried to organise christmas and birthday presents in advance

� was very low on mney, had forgotten i lent nathan a score, which was a life saver

� got a shit at parents evening

� scott talked to me
tried to patch things up, but only made things worse

� aimees party was good

� Wrote a story involving everyone

� time with carmel fell on its arse

December

� blue room was shut for a little while, and garden room was shit, i hate the garden room

� went down the pub withsteve and libby a coupleof times

� did some more christmas shopping

� had josies party which i think everyone enjoyed, i had a good fucking time

� making a game in ICT

� went to the asda party, that was shit

� feeder was cancelled

� did party review,

� went to the pub again, with more people this time

� finished coollege for christmas

� did a 61 hour stretch of hours christmas week

� had christmas party around natalies which was kick arse

� went out a lot,

� between christmas and new years, had a lot to drink

� megs party was really good

� had a nice breakfast on the parade after

� did the last of the filming, had more fun with it, good scenes at the end

� i turned 18

that will do i think, i started this at 12:47 and its now 16:52
its taken me that long to read through all of my diary entries

foook

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